Soul Sundays- Letting Go

I am flat out a control freak. Sorry. But, I am. I have to be in control of situations at all times. I don't like loosing control or not being able to have input on the outcome of a situation. It is funny because my husband is also a control freak. You would think with two of us in the house we would always be trying to get it "our way." However, that is not how it is at all. It seems like we are control freaks when it comes to our jobs but not so much with our relationships, friendships, and lives. I have to admit this teacher is having serious issues about leaving her "babies" for months in someone else's hands (even though she was my professor in college, has a doctorate degree, and has substitute many, many times). While I am glad that I have a veteran to come into my classroom and take over for my maternity leave, I am still worried. I like things done my way. I want to know that my kids are getting all the knowledge they need to have for the 8th grade. Quite frankly, I don't trust anyone else to do what I do with my students. For years, these kids have been my life, no matter what was going on in my day to day personal life, those kids helped to keep me grounded. They never saw me loose control, or cry uncontrollably as my marriage fell apart. They always saw just me-their teacher-there to do her job at teaching them to the best ability. They were my "babies". Now, I am having to have a slight shift in my thought process. They are no longer going to be my "babies." That is no longer going to be my number one priority. My number one priority is this little guy kicking around in my stomach right now trying to create more room for himself-and breaking my ribs at the same time (lol not really). My problem is I don't know how to let go. I keep trying to plan out every day for my substitute just so things go a little more my way. For years, I have been a teacher. I have been the job. I am the job. Now, I have a new job-a mommy to my little one. I guess I am having a hard time because I know how to be a teacher, I have never had to be a mommy before.
 

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