PEANUT BUTTER

I love peanut butter. I could eat peanut butter all the time. It is what I am craving...peanut butter cups, peanut butter smeared apples, peanut butter oatmeal, peanut butter and jelly (which I hate, as I don't like bread), and most of all peanut butter smeared on a graham cracker with mini chocolate chips sprinkled haphazardly on top (eating one as I am typing). Yummy in Baby Boak's tummy.

TMI

So as the post title says, this is complete TMI, but since it happened I feel like I should post this. Like I said before, this blog is for me; however, after this experience, I know how quickly people look for people who have had the same or similar conditions to make themselves feel better. So that is what this is. Today, after lunch, I went to the bathroom. After a small bit of straining, I wiped. RED BLOOD everywhere! I got woosy, and scared! I immediately called my husband in a state of panic. The doctor, unfortunately, was a lunch. So my loving husband called another doctor to talk too. I kept going back and forth to the bathroom to check, and it seemed to be tappering off. Finally, a couple hours later, I received a call to come in from my OB/GYN. I went in shaking and scared. They immediately did a pelvic exam and said that my cervix was red and irritated. I was still scared. (All I wanted to know was that my baby was safe and sound). He pulled out this big, huge q-tip thingy which had some blood on it. He then pushed around on my stomach but said that my cervix was long and firm, which was good. He said that I had a (in his words) "yucky discharge" and that was causing my cervix to be irritated. (He said it was most likely a yeast infection caused by my progesterone pills that I have to take). He wrote me a prescription and pulled out the fetal monitor to find the heartbeat. I swear that was the most relieving sound I think that I have ever heard. I know that it was definitely the sweetest.

Nursery furniture piece

So craigslist is my best friend. I have been looking on Craigslist for a while for a dresser and an armoire to use in the baby's room. After shopping at Babies R Us yesterday and seeing the price of a changing table that looked like a dresser for like 5-600 dollars, I decided that this was the best deal. $360 for a dresser, chest, headboard/footboard and rails and a mirror. After it is antique white and distressed it will be perfect for baby Boak's room. We did have to drive almost an hour away but so worth it. Can't wait...Hubby...we need to go paint shopping...hehehe

My Husband's Birthday

Happy Birthday to the absolute best husband in the world. This man I am married to means the world to me.  He treats me like a princess. In one year, he took me to Vegas, to Jamaica, and on a cruise. He spoils me with flowers just because I am having a rotten day. He is thoughtful in his choice of gifts-not always right on, but always thoughtful. He shares my love for cheesecake, as it is obvious that we demolished the piece below. He is my happiness. It is amazing I have been with him for just a short amount of time, but I feel like I have known him forever. He is my best friend, and the person that I want to share everything with. Every step I take, I know it will be alright as long as he is by my side.

 Goofy face as he is blowing out his little candle.

My fedora

The "bump" doesn't look prominent in the above picture.

11 Weeks

Dress by Burlington
Necklace by Body Central

How far along? 11 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss:  I have officially gained a whole entire pound. (+1). Which seems crazy  because all I do is eat. I am still trying to keep my portion sizes “in control”as I know I only need approximately 300 extra calories.
Maternity clothes?  No.
Stretch marks?  No, I am using my Mama Mio Belly Oil. My loving hubby rubs it on me religiously every single night.
Sleep:  I sleep well usually, but I have to get up usually at 3 and 6 for a potty break. However, I slept through the night last night and woke up at 6 to pee. I am still having crazy dreams. I didn’t sleep all that well one night this week because the bedroom felt hot to me and it was storming outside so I think it was scaring my yorkie and she kept climbing on top of me. Not beside me, but on top of me and whining. Poor thing.
Best moment this week:  One of the girls at school had her baby this week. They decided to let the gender be a surprise. It was a girl. It was nice to envision our little girl or boy with my husband. Also, I think we found the perfect “changing table”. It is a vintage dresser. My husband and I are going to look at it on Monday after the doctor’s appointment. Hopefully, there will be a reason for us to take the Titan. (lol)
Have you told family and friends:  Yes.
Miss Anything? Dark skin. I miss tanning. I hate this pasty pale ale skin that I have right now. It is not me. By this time I am usually dark because I have been laying in the cancer in a box for almost two months. But now I am icky white.
Movement:  No
Food cravings: Fruit and veggies. A little more for breakfast foods, pancakes, French toast, egg burritos, omelets, quiches, blueberry muffins, BISCUITS, you get the picture.
Anything making you queasy or sick:  Still the strong smells. My husband cleaned the carpet with cleaning machine and I was downstairs and had to sit on the couch with my nose covered or I would get extremely icky feeling.
Have you started to show yet:  No, still a flat belly, on occasion it looks bloated. However, I decided that jeans and a zip up hoodie was a good idea one day and one of my students was like Mrs. Jones, no offense but your showing. I looked down and was like that is just the way the shirt is laying. I felt so ummm weird that I unzipped my hoodie just so it wouldn’t look like I had a bump.
Gender prediction:  Still sticking with a girl-hopefully the Chinese chart holds true. I also did the old wives tale with the needle and it said girl.
Labor Signs:  No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time:  Happy, I am excited and nervous and scared, and just soooooooo blissfully happy.
Weekly Wisdom:  Let go. I know at some time that I am going to have a get over the scale and stop stepping on it 6 to 10 times a day.
Looking forward to: Going to the doctor to make sure that everything is okay with Baby Boak. 

10 Weeks

I feel like I have a bump here. It must have been all the food I ate at the restaurant. OOPS!

Both Dresses are from Body Central
The Black cardigan is from JcPenney
Jewelry from Body Central
Fedora from Rue 21


How far along? 10 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss:  I have been a little “stopped up” in the bathroom department. The scale is going up and down.
Maternity clothes?  No.
Stretch marks?  No, I am using my Mama Mio Belly Oil.
Sleep:  My husband says that I am tossing and turning. I am sleeping but still having these wicked, crazy dreams.
Best moment this week:  Winter Break. REST TIME!
Have you told family and friends:  Yes.
Miss Anything? The fact that I have to always be prepared. I have to have snacks, know where the nearest bathroom is and a bloat free stomach.
Movement:  No
Food cravings: Still liking me some peanut butter. I am craving fruits and vegetables. Like this morning, I made a veggie egg scramble…I could have actually done without the eggs (lol).
Anything making you queasy or sick:  Strong smells, whether it is the trash, or a really strong airfreshener or perfume, it makes me a little green in the gills.
Have you started to show yet:  No, still a flat belly, on occasion it looks bloated.
Gender prediction:  Still sticking with a girl-hopefully the Chinese chart holds true.
Labor Signs:  No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time:  Happy.
Weekly Wisdom:  PLAN, PLAN, PLAN. I am getting myself organized so that when we hear “It’s a girl,” or “It’s a boy”I can hit the ground running with the nursery.
Looking forward to: Either finding a house to buy, or building one. I am starting to get antsy about it as I want to be able to have months to prepare little baby B’s nursery.

9 Weeks

Black jumpsuit is from Ross

How far along? 9 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss:  Actually, today when I stepped on the scale, I had lost some ounces. I am at 111.2 instead.
Maternity clothes?  No.
Stretch marks?  No, I ordered some Mama Mio creams just to be on the safe size. I am also looking at Belli Products and Mustela.
Sleep:  Still having the unexplainable dreams, and I dislike some of the ones that I am having. I mean crazy, CRAZY!
Best moment this week:  My husband cooking breakfast for me this morning while I was in the shower. He also came home with the new Breaking Dawn and dinner from one of my craving restaurants last night for my “special” day.
Have you told family and friends:  Yes, but it is trickling through my old community where I was raised.
Miss Anything?  My “normalcy” when it comes to food. When I see or hear something, I automatically want it, even if I do not even particularly care for them.
Movement:  No
Food cravings: I really, really like fruits and vegetables. ANYTHING. I also am digging peanut butter smeared on a cracker or graham cracker…sometimes I cheat and put a sprinkling of chocolate chips on it. Funny thing, I have never really been a peanut butter eater…hmmm.
Anything making you queasy or sick:  I don’t really care for raw meat, like to see it or touch it. Especially chicken, even though I love chicken.
Have you started to show yet:  No, still a flat belly.
Gender prediction:  Still sticking with a girl-hopefully the Chinese chart holds true.
Labor Signs:  No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time:  Happy, sooooo happy. But I find that movies or books can make me emotional. I am not a crier but those dang hormones.
Weekly Wisdom:  Love. Love everything. It is important to not only tell people that you love them, but to show them also.
Looking forward to: Valentine’s Day,Winter Break, and my sweet husband’s birthday. I have a few things up my sleeve. HeHeHe

Food and Cravings

Let me just tell you that pregnancy can do a number on what you want to eat. I have so many cravings...from Texas Roadhouse's potato skins ( I know sooooo unhealthy) and a chicken salad, to Olive Garden's soup, (perferably minestrone), salad (with the dressing on the side-the one thing I can't stand is to have my salad drenched in dressing...I am a DIPPER), and breadsticks (okay just one...maybe two with marinara), Soccor taco's nachos or fajita...I wonder if they can make a virgin margarita??? hmmm, pizza-any kind from any place-Pizza Hut, Papa Johns, Papa Murphys, homemade, frozen...I don't care.
I have also been very into fruits and veggies. I love peaches, pears, and apples right now. But I just polished off a cucumber with homemade ranch (really it is just fat free sour cream and ranch mix-but it is so much more healthy than most bottled dressings-in a pinch greek yogurt makes a good substitute too). I still want some frozen yogurt, and meatballs (of course, not together). I have also been trying new recipes like Mexican Lasagna from the "What to Eat When You Are Expecting" book, and an awesome 1 minute chocolate cake via Chocolate Covered Katie, and I am about to try a deep dish cookie cake from her as well. Above and beyond my water, I drink tons of mock champagne. YUMMY!

A Special Day

Today, is a special day. In fact, it has always been called my Special Day. You see, 30 years ago, to the day, my mom and dad saw me for the first time. I was 6 weeks old and in a foster home with a different name. In fact, the name that my mom and dad gave me would be my third name in my short 6 week life span. I started out as Kristen Nicole Shipley, then was Amy Holston, and then I became Jone Suzanne Johnson (pronounced Jonie).
You see, I am adopted. I was adopted on Feb. 11, 1982. The story that I always heard is somewhat intriguing. As a curious child, at three years old, I asked my mom if I came from her tummy. After dad arrived home from work that evening, they explained to me that I did not come from her belly but from someone else's. They told me that I was "special" because they got to choose me. They told me that they knew I was the one from the first minute they saw me. My mom and dad had to come to meet me at a church I think. When they walked in the building, they could hear me crying. When they got to the door, my dad could see me, but my mom (being only 5 foot even) could not. When they walked in, they told me I looked at them, and stopped crying, just like that. It was like I knew or something.
So from the day that I found out that I was adopted, I had two days, my birthday, and my "special" day to celebrate. Growing up, whenever kids asked if i was adopted I would always tell them yes and it made me special because my mom and dad got to pick me.
Unfortunately, as we all know, kids can be cruel. In third grade, some boys decided that their new game was going to be Make Jone Cry, and they did, everyday. They taunted and teased me about the fact that I was adopted. To them, I was "Orphan Annie", or "Reject" or "Unloved" or "Unlovable". They never onced tired of telling me that my own mother threw me away like yesterdays trash. I was second best. No one wanted me. I was like a reject toy at a factory being recalled because I had something wrong with me. Eventually, they stopped, it is funny now (not really) that one of those gentlemen died of an overdose, while the other is in jail. No, I am not bitter, but I know that the scars of bullies never truly heal, as when I fail at something, I can always hear them whispering "reject" in my ear. They are my ghosts, and I know that they will never truly ever go away.
These things do not define me, but help shape me into who I am. I am Dr. Jone Jones Boak. I have led a successful life. I am married to an amazing man. I have a dog who stole my heart from the moment that I met her. Then, I have this little life growing inside me. It is hard to think of a life any different than the one that I have now, and I know that had my biological mother decided to keep me, I would have lived a very different lifestyle. I am thankful for the fact that a 19 year old was unselfish enough to look at herself and say "I want more for my child." Now, I am not saying that all teenagers do not make good parents, some do, but some don't. But, a older, more established, married couple, who has planned for a child for a very long time is 99 % of the time going to be more prepared. I think my biological mother for realizing that she couldn't give me this life. It is hard to put myself in her shoes, and I have to admit, I do not care much for her, but I do thank her. Because all I know is that from the first time I saw and heard Baby Boak, I fell in love. I couldn't even imagine the pain of giving her or him away.

A Tumble

Okay, so I had my first "big" scare the other day. I had just gotten up from a short little nap after work and was heading down the stairs. When out of nowhere my little dog, Bella, (who is a 15 pound Yorkie by the way) came flying down the stairs and took my feet out from under me. Needless to say, I was in the middle of the stairs and ended up at the bottom with a bottle of water spilled all over me and the floor. Bella didn't escape unscathed either as I sort of landed on her too. So, I huge bruise on my bum...I mean it is the size of a hand, some sore ribs and back and a pain in the neck...which might be from Bella (lol). I had to take the day off of work because I was bruised and sore, and quite frankly my husband was off that day, and I wanted/needed some Q time with him. The bruises are still visible almost a week later, but at least I can sit down without wishing I had one of those doughnut things to sit on.

8 Weeks

Black top is from Kohl's
Red belt is from Old Navy
Earrings from Body Central




How far along?  8 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss:  ZERO but I was asked today if I was starting to get a pudge…ummm no that was all the sausage cheese crescents and bacon wrapped water chestnuts that I ate last night at the superbowl party.
Maternity clothes?  No.
Stretch marks?  No, still getting a good rub down.
Sleep:  I have been having very vivid dreams. I have always been a very vivid dreamer, but these dreams have been crazy real. The weird part about it is who exactly are making star appearances in my dreams.
Best moment this week:  Getting my tax return. I was like pay some bills then put the rest back for baby B’s nursery. I see a shopping spree in my near future.
Have you told family and friends:  Yes, and it is starting to trickle down to others. I was approached by two people just today who wanted to know if the little “rumors” were true.
Miss Anything?  Strangely enough, I thought last night at the Superbowl party, I might miss my liquid indulgences. However, I was just as happy with mu mocktail punch.
Movement:  No
Food cravings: I just want what I see. One minute it is something, another minute it is something completely different. The only good part about my cravings is that I have yet to fulfill them. I was craving this fro yo that I had in Las Vegas last March when my husband and I got married. I am not big on ice cream, or fro yo for that matter, but you could get a cup (you choose what size you wanted) and then you filled the cup yourself. So we had a little of every flavor and topping. I craved that, and meatballs (I just know that that specific craving was a derivative of the baby shower for work (not me another girl is PG) because they had those there and I ate like four. Yum. By the way, I am not craving meatballs and fro yo together.
Anything making you queasy or sick:  Sometimes. But I never really quite know what it is that is making me feel a little icky. Most of the time it is a smell. For example, today a little fragrance plug in made me not feel so good in computer lab. It was just sooooo STRONG.
Have you started to show yet:  No, and I DO NOT HAVE A PUDGE!
Gender prediction:  Still sticking with a girl-hopefully the Chinese chart holds true.
Labor Signs:  No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time:  Happy, but I find that my patience, especially at school and especially with a group of young mean that my patience is wearing thin, very thin.
Weekly Wisdom:  Take people’s advice with a grain of salt. Not everyone’s pregnancy is the same. Like in everyday life, I need to do me and let other’s do themselves.
Looking forward to: Winter Break. It is 4 days that I get to relax and rest and maybe nest a little. I am also looking forward to going out to dinner with my friends and husband for Valentine’s Day and his birthday to a Brazilian steakhouse that has the best cheesecake. (sidenote: I told him that I had to share the cheesecake with him last time, this time I am already sharing so I get my own…lol not really, those pieces are huge, and I definitely couldn’t eat it by myself.

Baby Crafts

In addition to my pictures, I have some links so it will be easier for me to find once I get to "that" point.

mod pod canvas

vintage wall

barbie doll shadow boxes

wall art

flower ottoman

storage solutions

letter name

ribbon wreath

lamp

name and name banner

curtains

light switch cover

wall paper bookshelves

ceiling things painted

canvas diaper box

feather wreath

bow holder

Saying

stacked frame

naptime decorator-book center

DIY upholstered wall hangings

toddler bench

a nursery inspiration with accessories

love the ruffles and the big full skirt

Love these ruffles

 a book corner is a must in Baby Boak's room

 pom poms and lanterns are a MUST!!!

 I love the frames and the bunting...little pops of color are my thing

 I will have to repurpose an old dresser or chest of some sort for a changing table.

Again love the ruffles

 Must do this with an armoire

 love the strips